This year I turned 6 (2+4) the number of healing. Time is funny isn't it? The weather is changing again and the air feels so familiar. Wasn't I just a girl? Skipping class to huddle up in the cold just to catch a quick high or walking miles just to crawl into your bed and let you touch me. Just a girl trying to feel something to help me forget about the voices in her head.
My mind is a complex place.
My mind is endless, there are parts I have yet to explore.
Everyday I learn something new.
The seed that I once was, was planted in San Jose, Costa Rica. My mami watered me without my father but love was never missed. I was brought to light on Tuesday, July 16th sometime in the afternoon. Mami birthed me in a public woman's hospital amongst other woman yet, she was alone. She grasped a piece of paper with a prayer that she repeated over and over until we met. She was 23, as was my grandma when she birthed my ma', as was I when I birthed my baby. 2+3 is 5, 5 is the number of personal freedom. I grew up amongst strong, hard-working and independent woman. Woman full of love. Woman full of God.
My mama and I followed my grandma and aunt to Florida when I was 5. Where we have stayed since. As time passed, I experienced many changes and growth but one thing I never stopped doing was creating art. I find so much in art. It feels like home, art calms me, it comforts me, it helps me organize my thoughts and understand myself better. Art flows out of me, it comes from a deep mysterious place full of beauty, knowledge, and light. These images I create are full of energy and light. I've been pouring my heart into pieces of paper for years now... trying to figure myself out and to be honest I'm still not sure.
I do know a few things though. I am made of the same things the stars, the moon, the earth and everything in between is made of. I'm just not sure what to call it. I know eyem infinite and that I won't end once this life does.
My soul will keep going.
My art is full of meaning, full of symbols. It's like a puzzle, you won't see the meaning right away. My art is something you have to put together and we won't all find the same things. It is also open to translation, but we won't all translate it the same. You see what you want to see, you learn what you want to learn... and that's with everything in this life.
Same but different.
We are experiencing life in different waves that are in the same ocean.
Does any of this make sense to you?
Not everyone's going to understand, I learned that a while ago...
Not everyone gone understand me.
Those that do though, they fill me with so much love.
It is a beautiful thing to feel accepted and seen in a world that's also belittled and stepped all over me...
Life is funny like that.
Full of highs and lows
I am so grateful.
Eye am so grateful to have you here